a mournful day

today. today is a sad day. some of you may already know this, but last night i killed Luc. tragic really. my fictional friend was just going for a run and had a mis hap with a neighbor. after his run he came back and he took a shower. once he got out of the shower... curtains for luc. sorry luc. it was kinda hard to write. i mean luc is a little bit of me and killing him off was weird. now i know how JK Rowling felt killing Sirius. before i thought she was stupid for crying about killing a character that she made up but now i get it. what a tragedy. oh well. onward and upward.

at the risk of sounding like a 14 year old girl, i had a dream the other night that i saw the movie new moon. yes as in new moon the twilight sequel. judge me. please. i do. anyways. thats not the point. the point is that after seeing it i was very perturbed at the fact that the love of my life was not in it for some strange reason. who is the love of my life you ask? ashley greene aka alice. in the movie shes cute but in real life she has long hair and shes the perfect height and i may or may not be in love with her. is that creepy? probably. whatever. either way she was not in this version of new moon which surprised me because her name was in the credits and in the dream i knew that she had to go to vancouver to film the movie. WTF. clearly im having some strange subconscious issues.

today i found out that i have four papers due within 4 days of each other. that is one for monday, one for tuesday, one for wednesday, and one for thursday. they are all worth at least 20 % of my final grade. i knew going into today that i had three due that week, but now i have four. my super awesome lit teacher gave us the due date for his today. fuck. i hate papers. but class was good today because i got another star. high five for me. i said that in brokeback mountain the mountain is called brokeback because it is a metaphor for ennis and jack's (heath and jakey poo's) love for one another. their love is crippling i.e. they got a broken back. hot damn someone throw some water on me because i am ON FIRE. then we moved on to talking about as i lay dying which i hadn't opened since we read it junior year in ms. price's AP lit class. she was another teacher who hated me. probably because of the "loxodontas africanus" incident. we'll leave it at that.

in light of the fact that i have 4 papers due, several hundred pages of reading and my life to plan all within the next two weeks i should probably go be productive... aka watch house, lost and dead like me online followed by the 2 dvds of extras that came from netflix today. jealous? yeah me neither.